Today I had an amazing day...
It started when I woke up with an empty text message from a number I didn't know. That instantly remainded me about HIM and my heart started pumping so fast, because I hopped it was him, though I knew it couldn't be. Anyway...thinking about that I decided to response with an empty text message and I did. The answer made me realise someone definitely got the wrong number, but it was very funny. So that text message made me wake up in a good mood. It gave me the confirmation that I needed to keep living my life the way I do, even if sometimes it seems that all the effort that I make to bring a little light around my world it's in vain, to keep seeing things the way I do, even if people say that it's unrealistic and utopian.
Also, those text messages made me realise another thing. Lately I've been thinking that I found the path to getting over HIM, taking baby steps, but on my way. Well...this morning (actualy it was 1 p.m. when I woke up), when my heart was beatting out of my chest I realised that I was nowhere near that path...but it's ok...I enjoy this feeling that I have.
This experience let me to the conclusion that I don't have to search for love every day, all the time...I can take a break, in fact I should stop my search, cause love is not something that you plan, it happens, so... I don't have to waste time and energy on it. I'm supposed to be living my life and chasing my dreams.
Ow...and it wasn't the wrong number...not my dream boy either.
Patty Griffin - Heavenly Day